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for those faint of heart ~laughs ~ I just wanted to say that But I didn't sleep last night so what ever I write may have no fluency or meaning..in-fact I haven't slept well for the last three nights three strange nights I would be willing to bet that last nights fun was due to drinking an iced vanilla coffee from mccrappys ...after 800pm okokok i know one whos kinda sensitive shouldn't do such things BUT Im so sick of living with the shoulds at this moment in time I needed to feel alive again I think its the summer s relentless heat or the fact I havent been writing meditating or listening to good music wow that and my stupid cam broke again because I carelessly shoved it into my purse I know everything will get good again baby steppin till that point and breathin kind of wild but sometimes when I dont sleep I go into a creative awake dreamstate with the right music like this moment Im listening to a podcast off Itunes called Percussion Lab presents the name Boltfish Recordings Showcase Mix from 12/15/05 if you can check it out very sweet indeed kisses and love to any who still check this out wishing you all whatever it is that your wishing for ;) love to all mm m smiles feeling better already A