for those faint of heart ~laughs ~ I just wanted to say that But I didn't sleep last night so what ever I write may have no fluency or meaning..in-fact I haven't slept well for the last three nights three strange nights I would be willing to bet that last nights fun was due to drinking an iced vanilla coffee from mccrappys ...after 800pm okokok i know one whos kinda sensitive shouldn't do such things BUT Im so sick of living with the shoulds at this moment in time I needed to feel alive again I think its the summer s relentless heat or the fact I havent been writing meditating or listening to good music wow that and my stupid cam broke again because I carelessly shoved it into my purse I know everything will get good again baby steppin till that point and breathin kind of wild but sometimes when I dont sleep I go into a creative awake dreamstate with the right music like this moment Im listening to a podcast off Itunes called Percussion Lab presents the name Boltfish Recordings Showcase Mix from 12/15/05 if you can check it out very sweet indeed kisses and love to any who still check this out wishing you all whatever it is that your wishing for ;) love to all mm m smiles feeling better already A

Last night on Larry King Tammy Faye and Deepak wow Surreal? Profound? I watched at first because it was on almost like passing a train wreck I couldnt stop staring http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/bestoftv/2007/07/19/lkl.tammy.faye.god.cnn then I watched from growing curiosity and stayed until it was over in awe Years back when the surreal house was on I happened to catch the series where she was on ... I liked her what can I say ... I so admire her faith in her faith and compassion in her heart that she holds tight that and the fact that she can actually blink with all that mascara on Deepak kind of summed my thoughts up and made me smile We just all need to believe that belief makes us alive and connected and in love and with those things present anything is possible post note watch this, Id be willing to bet now that she got that interview out she dies within this week .... so crazy this life smiles thinking of what else I can share I found this amusing http://www.darkroastedblend.com/2007/04/top-office-pranks-and-april-fools-day.html and really liked the music from this band The Orange Lights check um out:) http://www.myspace.com/theorangelights Have a lickable lovely weekend be at peace when you breathe and smile just cuz thats where the fun is mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Love and smiles A