mmm breathes in Smiles to all ...then smiles some more I do so love smiling .... Listening to "Satyam_Shivam_Sundaram_(Govinda_Remix)_(Thievery_Corporation)" I have to make this year my year. I need to sit down and figure out the people I need to attract into my life to come along for the ride. I want to have more fun this year and an abundance of laughter of all kinds sparkling jovial rambunctious riotous insane quiet loving love to love love to laugh love to breathe love to watch stars twinkle and shine loves to dream Im gonna write about the hawk feathers .... hugs and smiles to all smiles again mmmm be that good Love A

In this picture all my found feathers, two hawk feathers, one owl, and one wild turkey. It was a strange day... as far as the weather was concerned. The air hot, suffocating... giving way to a summer storm ...the rains water, washing the way giving birth to a misty coolness .... My camera, of two years - gifted from my brother, lie broken on top of the cabinet containing various art projects of mine ...~lil sigh~ ... I loved that camera... A simple way to share the beauty I find hidden with in this world. Now normally I would have slung that cam to my shoulder, incase I should encounter something worth capturing, so having it broken I admittedly kind of grumped about it to my children.......... I love them so .. It is so profoundly amazing, the insight these little teachers have already instilled within their brilliant minds. Walking through the neighborhood. Looking, breathing, we headed east for a change. One of the kids from down the street joining along... The top of the street reveals the field across the way shrouded in a cloak of soft white mist... mmmm The kids all in unison beg to investigate it further "PLEASE MOM come on lets go play tag in the cloud please pleeeeease....... who am I to argue? We laugh crossing over at the silly stop light which fails to comply to give us the walk dude Finally making it mmmmm YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE We all run this way that screaming in gleeeeeeeeee why fields inspire full throttle blissed out energy I dont know and I dont want to I just revel in it but it is just that pure isnt it? after a good five minutes I find myself standing alone a moment in time space and just breathing ... having pangs of God this is just so mind blowing beautiful why cant I have my camera with me pains I actually scream out loud ARRRRGHHHH whYYYY cant I have MY CAMERA!!!!!!!! My eyes are pulled down to mother earth and I spy this long brown/white feather hmmm questioning look now looking closer bending to pick it up ... smiling and feeling my heart flutter NO WAY.... Its a hawk feather I know it instantly Ive been searching since the beginning of last year In a way it was a quest of mine to find just this I had literally made it so telling a dear friend of mine, needing to find it as a sign in ways The Hawk to me is my messenger bird I ve seen it every time I needed to be connected to the pure way life moves The no bullshit way the essence of just being in ways that are just that being one with the universe I SCREAM AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHH I FOUND A HAWK FEATHER!!!!!!!!! only to jump and spin around and then ...look down again shivers running down my body as I type mmmm smiles What do you think I saw ? ANOTHER ONE!!!!!!!! Screaming again as I pick it up and dance running with my feathers as tho I myself could fly blissing out on just the moment Now my two kids and the neighbor boy have located my jubilation and want to partake Sharing my gift They each take the feathers and do just as I had done extending arms out to their sides and flapping up and down they laugh and pretend to fly Tis amazing the amount of power those feathers hold the way you can feel them cutting through the air the pull they give you I love this life really My daughter said "mom...you know I think ...I think that you found those feather s because you were so sad that you didnt have camera..." You know what? She is right and then some .... Not only was it amazing to find two hawk feathers, here is the thing they are from opposite sides BUT they are the same flight feathers wow I was also was asking questions about my healing abilities that morning Finding those feathers led to answers Tell me do you have any stories to share??? Share with me:) Peace and love A

totallllllly having the laziest day ever!!!!!yeah me ~ just grins Checking out this cool thing I found off of Princesses page and being completely in rapture at how well it works here is the one I made with a "FEW" pictures from last year :) I hope it works on here And the addy to do the same if you have pictures you d like to share http://www.slide.com/ so sweet hugs and love to all and now Im going to go take a shower ... I think..like anyone cares ~laughs ` Im going to sing if you listen reallllly hard maybe you can hear me ;) any suggestions on what to sing? :P peace out A

Heeheehahaheee Im smiling eating Cherrios out of the box Ah the sun is brightly shining the birds are merrily singing the grass is turning green...Green? what green ??????? ITS JANUARY!!!!!!! It shouldnt be getting green till March!!!!!!!!! About me ..You know I think one of the things that has always made me have a more connected view of the world , is the fact I grew up in a place where the weather corresponded with the appropriate holiday cliches. IE mmm The snows fell with blustery cold winds in Dec. making life picking out the Christmas tree utter and profound hell laughing you know it was part of the ritual having your nose turn Rudolph red , your toes so cold you had to hobble to and fro finally getting to the part where you just pick any tree so you can defrost and get the f back in the car. Snow snow snow I miss the snow http://www.fightglobalwarming.com/index.cfm not the crazy ten foot snows but the sledding snowman snow angel snow . . I'd set out in my twisted dorky one piece snowsuit, navy blue furry boots and sled all morning, studying the way that nature looked undisturbed, I sooooooooo LOVE THAT! The quiet way the moment seemed so pristine so untouched by any other.... Me exploring , investigating, recording the magical white world. Breathing in a deep breath... savoring mmm the sweet glittery smell so fresh that it just locks in and hums through ones soul swirling and dancing renewing your mind, in a wash of cold icy cleanness. Feet my medium for creating, breaking the untouched virgin canvas, glistening prints crunch crunch crunch under foot.. paths, words, smiling.... Kids have unwritten rules about the snow on their yards ...I wonder if thats an older sibling thing tho ......I know my eldest daughter is like that but not the younger and now that I think about it, my brother didnt really care so much if anyone messed up the snow before him ...... Id trek about all afternoon connecting with all my friends initiating snowball fights building forts sledding more then make snow creatures all late afternoon till it got dark out then come in face totally red and chapped to peel off all the hundred layers of wet to the bone clothes, drink steaming hot cocoa, and smile de thawing. content from a day well spent being a kid http://www.nrdc.org http://www.earth911.org http://www.worldwildlife.org/involved/ Its so easy to help ... Just do it Peace and love A

Letter H from my up and coming Children's ABC f o c u s is it not wild that you have the power to think what ever you want to think? yeah, so amazing the power that your thoughts have. Amazing when you combine that together with like mind... the beauty that is spun when souls connect and breathe together letting go and trusting ... I need more of those connections in 2007 Being an artist do I have more of a connection because I can create what ever I see in my mind as a reality? I believe I do .. so I guess it is ~grins ~ its so damn cool... sends love smiles to who ever reads this .... You know what? I want some contact with who does read this, if you would just leave even as simple as one word in my comment space you would make me really happy:) life is good... mmm Love and blessings A Listening to 'Les Brers in A Minor' The Allman Brothers Band Link for the day the MOST awesome picture I ve seen in awhile! check it out :) http://zennie.zaadz.com/photos/view/81288 Is just smiling as I keep adding onto this post today having stumbled onto this website from another zaadzster It made me really happy and I think its worth reading again if you havent before:) http://www.sevara.com/wisdom/seven_steps_to_happiness.html Have a blessed and beautiful day in being :)

*if the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you. When mountains crumble to the sea, There will still be you and me. Kind woman, I give you my all, Kind woman, nothing more. Little drops of rain whisper of the pain, Tears of loves lost in the days gone by. My love is strong, with you there is no wrong, Together we shall go until we die. My, my, my, an inspiration is what you are to me, Inspiration, look see. And so today, my world it smiles, Your hand in mine, we walk the miles, Thanks to you it will be done, For you to me are the only one. Happiness, no more be sad, Happiness....Im glad. Led Zeppelin God what a good song ........ I want someone to write a song like that to me ~ HUGE GRIN~ So song writers unite write the ultimate song about me Alissa the artist with hair of gold and a heart to match Ill be waiting ~ is laughing I love laughing mmm I love loving have the best day ever who ever and where ever your being is being

I am I am I love that I am. When ever I read that silly question ...Who are you? I instantly think in my mind, I am. Are you I am? I am... How can one ever convey in the meager length that a paragraph offers just how beautiful, and all encompassing they truly are? Not only that, but I dont want to be locked into that box of just one way ... I am free... to change and adapt I am... here to learn and breathe I am a smile I am simple I am love I am truth I am light I am creative I am in awe I am curious I am responsive I am tired I am laughing I am peace I am good I am 575 ......I am electric........ .light energy abounding. breathe listen laugh love listening to the whistling of the man fixing the leaking faucet in the bathroom and the song in my mind is 'The trick is to keep breathing" Garbage The song on my I tunes 'Indifference' by Pearl Jam WAY coolest site of the day ...... http://www.adobe.com/creativemind/microsite.html even tho its selling Adobe it is baddddd ass beautiful be your I am mmm breathe laugh love Love I amS

I just read that... this is the most depressing day of the year. Hmm ~Im laughing at this moment on that thought. The most depressing thing to me is ... I dont know... I think this life offers strange lessons. Things that are depressing often offer insights that give new perspectives, and wisdoms... All in how you look at it? ..................................................... I see things in the form of challenge. My challenge,present tense, is that Im killing another camera ~counts my fingers on how many Ive toasted~ thinking Im up to 5 My lesson at the moment ... How do I get a new one ? GRIN ~ I dont know, but out of necessity creativity is born .... I actually have a VERY cool idea.... Should I share it out loud ?... maybe in a lil bit when I have stuff more jelled together... Do we make our own drama? Thinking on my girlfriend ... wow ... Is it something to talk about? so curious on how that all works It all comes down to living your truth, doesn't it? When you live your truth........ there is no need for that drama I wonder how I help her get there .. or is that even something I should do ...If I stopped listening to her drama, would that make the drama stop? Do I fuel the drama? BUT son of a bitch! I feel that she isnt living her truth, how can I condone that? O.K. next ~l` subject... ~whispers~ thank you for letting me rant, this thing really gets to me......... The book on my desk is 'Alexander and the terrible horrible no good very bad day' http://www.kennedy-center.org/multimedia/storytimeonline/alexander.html I'd like to do that too... where I video tape me reading all my favorite children's stories... Song on my Itunes is 'last goodbye' by jeff buckley http://www.jeffbuckley.com/ This song makes me sad I should turn it off, but in keeping with the spirit of the day Ill just leave it on. "Just hear this and then Ill go ...." ~makes a pout face~ ouch He was so beautiful ... damn. Isnt it simply fascinating what words and music can do to your body? The other day I was vacuuming, and realized that the reason I liked vacuuming so much, was because the vibration/ sound of the vacuum was so close to my humming mantra I do each morning. Which made me in return think about this further ... We are all connected by vibrations~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~the sounds the way we take in information some are more sensitive to it then others~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Im SO highly sensitive ..../The sound of an idling truck engine is probably the MOST annoying sound I can think of at this second.. That and the sound of teeth grinding..~shutters~ Laughter is my favorite ahhh:)!!!!! Also the sound of things running .... Horses, cats, kids, water... I love that way the space in-between the moment is so evenly paced. mmmm This a scattered mind post of random thoughts. Yesterday It snowed!!! It was a decent snow, with perfect packability We built snow creatures all morning, ate lunch, went for a walk, then went sledding. You know my favorite moment? It was watching my daughter slowly sled down the hill ... at the bottom she did that thing, where your too tired to move so you flop over, and just lay on your sled looking up at the sky. ~laughing at the thought ~ That zen moment where everything is just ..........so............... .........still............... and blissfully quiet... Thats what this life is about, those simple moments in life. Where you actually just listen.breathe.be. Yes mmmm breathes feeling happy :) ~Looking for a song ahh finding it~ One of my very favorites, forever, no matter what. 'This Must Be the Place (Naive Melody)' Talking Heads. Finding this interesting website.... http://talking-heads.csl.sony.fr/ While looking for this one. http://www.davidbyrne.com/ Tell ya what.... Since Im doing the web site thing... PLEASE check this out and take one second to fill out the petition http://www.savetheinternet.com/ http://www.savetheinternet.com/ http://www.savetheinternet.com/ http://www.savetheinternet.com/ http://www.savetheinternet.com/ ~~~~~~~~~~SMILES~~~~~ They are all the same, so pick one, and just do it :) Thank You in advance for helping:) You go you ~laughing~ Smiles to all all to smiles Smiles to all All to smiles Be blessed and Blessed be Love, A

I have to admit, I am one to look, and see different signs. Now one can correlate that if you actively look for something then it shall appear. None the less it does, and so it brings the fact to light. When you focus on something you do indeed make that thought part of your reality Crazy isnt it? ~Laughing~ O.K. So mid summer, a storm rolls into town. She knock knock knocks on our house via a tree limb! BOOM! Honey, the new sky light is installed! Countless hours were spent bickering back and forth with our insurance company. Many faxes had to be sent, and blood pressure was constantly elevated. One morning in particular, things were looking kind of hairy and twisting into a bad direction for us. I literally looked up to the heavens, and shouted, my hands in sync with each word... "GOD I REALLLLLLLLLLY NEED A SIGN FROM YOU TODAY! JUST GIVE ME A SIGN!!!"... PLEASE.... THANK YOU!" Then went about my business ... One hour later... driving down the road, there is this church that always has funny signs about, well what else, but God. And what should be on the sign this day? I read it as I always do, to have my jaw fall in disbelief There on that sign was this note, "IF YOUR LOOKING FOR A SIGN FROM GOD, THIS IS IT!" Laughs again shaking my blondie locks ... Crazy huh? It made me smile and drove the point home that... You have to let go and trust this universe.. Breathe, and know that how ever it works out its always the way it works out for what ever reason that may be Nothing is ever as bad as you thought it was going to be... Nothing. So smile. Life is good~ You are good~ And good is good~ Have a blessed day. Love, A

~pokes my arm and watches golden light spilling forth ... listening to http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=6908275 White Flight "Pastora Divine" heehee now i need to hear Pennywise....Bro Hymn Tribute rowdy dance GO!!!!!!!!!! my mind feelis like blissin out and not forming sentences.. But before I go... This is something I didnt know until I was shown .. We can all do a little something and those little somethings add up to bigness so heres my site for the day http://www.actionstudio.org/public/page_view_all.cfm?option=begin&pageid=7467